“I just didn’t see a solution. I would sit up at night, and I was just, like, I don’t understand how all of this is being churned out. And, again, I wasn’t seeing it, but it’s almost worse when you feel it through the expression of my mom or my friends, or them calling me crying, just, like, ‘Meg, they’re not protecting you’. And I realized that it was all happening just because I was breathing,” she explained.

“I was really ashamed to say it at the time and ashamed to have to admit it to Harry, especially, because I know how much loss he’s suffered. But I knew that if I didn’t say it, that I would do it. And I just didn’t want to be alive anymore. And that was a very clear and real and frightening constant thought,” Meghan added.

Meghan didn’t attend King Charles’ coronation

“And I remember how he just cradled me. I went to the institution, and I said that I needed to go somewhere to get help. I said that, ‘I’ve never felt this way before, and I need to go somewhere’. And I was told that I couldn’t, that it wouldn’t be good for the institution.”

The relationship between the Sussexes and the royal family deteriorated quickly, and many of The Firm’s members were outraged by the claims made against them.

Princess Eugenie is reportedly the only royal who has visited Harry, Meghan, and their two children, Archie and Lilibet, in California. Meanwhile, Harry and Meghan have not been back to the UK more than necessary, with the Duchess being back in her old home country only once, for Queen Elizabeth II’s funeral in 2022.

When King Charles was crowned in Westminster Abbey last May, one of the main topics that gained a lot of interest was whether Harry and Meghan would be in attendance or even be welcomed.

While the two had lost all confidence of most royal family members at that point, in the end, the king would decide if they’d be invited or not.

Finally, Harry decided to come and see his father become king, while Meghan stayed in the US, caring for Archie and Lilibet.

Harry’s visit to the coronation was maybe not a big surprise. However, shortly after the ceremony, he left for the airport and returned to his wife. Some royals reportedly were happy about Harry not joining them for the coronation lunch.

They even had hopes that Harry and Meghan, if she would’ve showed up, would sit far back at Westminster Abbey, not even remotely close to the other family members.

Meghan Markle sent letter to Charles after Oprah interview

The reason Meghan Markle stayed in the US was, as mentioned, to take care of their two children. However, it’s known that her mother, Doria Ragland, usually helps Meghan with the kids if plenty is going on; therefore, could there have been another reason why Meghan didn’t travel to the UK with her husband?

According to The Telegraph, reporting on it in April of last year, there is. After the Oprah interview, Meghan decided to share her concerns about unconscious bias with Prince Charles and sent him a letter.

Later on, King Charles, then prince, decided to send a response to Meghan where he expressed his sadness over the tensions within the family, specifically between Harry & Meghan and the rest of The Firm.

Also, Charles was believed to have been the only senior member of the royal family to reach out to the Duchess after the Oprah interview.

The Telegraph report unveiled new details, among them that Meghan told Charles that she never intended to accuse the royal family of racism but rather to discuss the unconscious bias.

Speculations surrounding Meghan Markle not attending the coronation arose. It was rumored that the real reason for her now showing up was that the Duchess was disappointed about Charles not addressing her concerns about the unconscious bias in his letter.

Meghan Markle spokesperson shut down coronation rumors

However, a spokesperson for Meghan later shut down the speculations, saying it was “ridiculous.”

“The Duchess of Sussex is going about her life in the present, not thinking about correspondence from two years ago related to conversations from four years ago. Any suggestion otherwise is false and frankly ridiculous. We encourage tabloid media and various royal correspondents to stop the exhausting circus that they alone are creating,” Meghan’s spokesperson told People Magazine.

In an ITV interview in early 2023, Harry decided to address the matter of alleged racism within the oral family, telling the interviewer that they did not believe they were.

“No,” Harry said. “The British press said that, right? Did Meghan ever mention ‘they’re racists?’”

“The difference between racism and unconscious bias… the two things are different. Once it’s been acknowledged or pointed out to you as an individual, otherwise an institution, that you have unconscious bias, you, therefore, have an opportunity to learn and grow from that… otherwise, unconscious bias then moves into the category of racism,” he added.

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